Maybe in 10 years, or 20 years or more (or less!) I'll laugh over how seriously I took turning 30. It's not that I'm afraid of it (anymore). I'm a little sad about leaving my 20's behind. A little scared of what my 30's might bring. I always thought I'd be more, have more, by the time I turned 30. But 30 always seemed so far away. Now it's 4 days away.
It just seems so solid. Such a heavy, tangible number. In some ways I feel lost - like I should have 'found' myself by now or something. In other ways I feel like I'm moving towards a more 'real' me. Like everything that I do discover about myself now is the authentic version. I'm no longer just trying things on for size, playing dress up in someone elses life.
I think the above quote needs to be my theme for my 30th year. It's a little bit of everything I need.
1 comment:
AW! Birthday girl! It'll be fine. I like how you say you are finding the authentic version of you. Like it a lot.
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