Thursday, January 14, 2010

Motivation

I have none.

I stayed home sick from work yesterday. I don't know about other people, but I get restless. I couldn't relax. I kept feeling like I should be cleaning or sewing or cooking or something. I don't know where that comes from. I used to be able to chill out in the middle of anything. Now, I get fidgety. I got a couple loads of laundry done and a shower and that was about it. Every time I stood up I just felt nauseous. The Husband even made dinner last night.

I had today off since I'm back on my regular schedule. I'm feeling a little bit better, but just couldn't get motivated. There are a couple things I really wanted to sew, but just wasn't feelin' it. So I just did another load of laundry, put away clothes, cleaned the kitchen, mopped the floors. Kevin just laughed when I told him I wasn't motivated to get anything done after I finished mopping the floors. He apparently thought that was enough, but it was only 10. What a waste of a day. He helped me clean the kids play room. I still feel like I should have made a grocery list for next week or maybe worked on the household binder. I was just blah. Blah, blah, blah.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better, I hate feeling like I didn't get anything accomplished.

Is anyone else like that? My husband isn't. I know he has zero issues wasting the day away doing nothing. I think I would mind it less if my doing nothing was productive. I know, that sounds silly. But I spent most of the day watching TV, playing Dr. Mario, drinking tea and eating soup. I mean, I could have wasted the day and still made a few phone calls that I needed to make, or started my taxes or something. TV makes my mind feel mushy.

I used to love doing that. Lying around, being a bum. Maybe finishing a book in a day. It was pure bliss to spend a long, lazy day doing nothing. Maybe sometime I should try sitting back and enjoying it again, huh?

2 comments:

Cari said...

You didn't feel good! You are supposed to be lazy! I get the same way though. Stuff starts to eat at me, and then I feel guilty that I'm home and not doing anything...even if there is a good reason for me to be home. LOL Abe has no issue with planting his rear on the couch and playing video games all day long. Sometimes I wish I could do that. LOL

Sara said...

I have spent an entire day reading a book. Last night I went home and was just miserable, bent over in pain, so I sat in the tub and read Mama Soule's book. That motivated me in my crafting. Motivation to clean the house...haven't found that one yet.